Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
Hebrews !2:1-3 (NIV)
It hasn’t been a banner week. The flu virus moved into our house, we’ve had contractors in all week repairing the bathroom, and all of my (usually boundless) energy and motivation seems to have evaporated. I find myself in the uncomfortable and unaccustomed position of feeling a little pathetic. It’s unfamiliar and I don’t like it.
|Just listening to God |
speak through these women
and their dreams and
I feel a stirring.
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I am overwhelmed by the love, faith, and drive of the women who have been chosen to walk this path with me. We are the women of the God-sized Dream Team. I haven’t written in a few days, and instead, have been reading their blog posts. Just listening to God speak through these women and their dreams and I feel a stirring.
I’ve never really had a group of Christian women friends like this. I’m not one to travel in a girl pack; I live my faith but I’m fairly private (I have a very close circle of friends), and growing up PK (a pastor’s kid), I’ve seen so much in communities of faith that has disappointed me that I am disinclined to hang with church folk.
This is different. Through a shared invitation, truthfully, it was a dare, I have come to know 99 women who amaze me daily. They are different from me, but we are joined in purpose and exist in a common state of Grace. So when I started feeling all less than and out of sorts, I was drawn to Hebrews 12. Matthew Henry’s commentary describes this text as,
An exhortation to be constant and persevere, The example of Christ is set forth, and the gracious design of God in all the sufferings believers endured.
I hear the words as a reminder to get over myself. I am literally surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, women whose lives and who’s stories and whose faith lift me out of my mire (which I remind myself are a series of inconveniences…I am not without) that it’s time to dust myself off, throw off all that might hinder me, and persevere.
I have a great tool for that. Or actually, Holley does. On January 1st, she launched this great tool, which I’m using, called the Do What You Can Plan. It’s an instructional manual for eating the elephant (a bite at a time). You see, I’m not going to pull myself out of this mire in a moment’s notice, and that’s where the plan comes in. Her approach to eating the elephant is to
Decide on the minimum you’d like to accomplish in a particular area of your life over the next twenty-one days. Then divide that by about half.
Even when I’m feeling at my lowest, I can take baby steps. And, in the company of these powerful sisters, when I am weary, I come to them and drink from the fount. I don’t even need to confess my struggles there-there is a word someone needs to say that I need to hear. That is how it is with God. That is how it is becoming with my sisters.
I hadn’t written in a few days, but I have read the words of my sisters, and I am encouraged. I read from Holley’s book, and am reminded how to eat the elephant.
God can handle the big. When you start out, it’s okay for your part to simply be the small.
And that is all I need to throw off everything that hinders, along with the sin (in the form of fear, anxiety, doubt) that so easily entangles. I will not grow weary and lose heart. I may be down, I may even be broken, but my brokenness will be the key to my healing. And I’ve got all my sisters with me. Nothing can stop us.
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