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Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Fierce and fragile…


For if thou altogether holdest thy peace at this time, then will relief and deliverance arise to the Jews from another place, but thou and thy father's house will perish: and who knoweth whether thou art not come to the kingdom for such a time as this?
Esther 4:14 (ASV)



Yesterday, I switched up my jewelry. I collect dragonflies (jewelry) and it didn’t occur to me to consider why I find them so appealing until someone asked…my answer was that they are like me, “fierce and fragile.” (Sometimes I’m wiser than I realize.) Lately, I’ve been wondering why I’ve been really hitting it hard lately. Kierkegaard wrote,
Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards. 
I no longer need to know it all (why things happen, what they mean…that’s God’s job), but I do value the review of my experiences (and my lessons) to discern what God might be teaching me, or what I need to learn. I’ve been hitting it hard lately to have my mettle tested…to confirm what I’m made of. I am fierce and fragile, but also sheltered and treasured. I was drawn to Esther because life’s throttling lately reminded me, despite what’s happening in my life, I have favor before the King. 

I pulled Finding Favor with the King by Tommy Tenney off the shelf today. Clearly, it’s time to read it again. I was as drawn by the book itself as I was the inscription from the friend who gave it to me,
God truly placed you in my life for a purpose. I know that God’s favor is upon you. Be blessed.
Sometimes the blessing you’re about to receive has been waiting for you to be ready. Esther was fierce and fragile. I can only imagine that this season in my life is about being ready. So, it looks like I’m back in training, for God’s next big thing. As I get started, I’m re-reading a message I wrote myself as an encouraging reminder.  
 …this is a lot to live up to.  I am reminded, over, and over, how very full my life is.  I am again reminded that even when life gets particularly rough, there is comfort in that in an imperfect world, a perfect God loves us, and abides with us, through all things.  And despite all the toughest things I have to face and all the answers to all the questions I never have in time, I clearly have been granted an abundant life. 

Fierce and fragile, but ready to walk in the favor for which I was created. It’s almost time, and all of what has gone before suggests that the after is going to be extraordinary. Further evidence that God is good.
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