For if thou
altogether holdest thy peace at this time, then will relief and deliverance
arise to the Jews from another place, but thou and thy father's house will
perish: and who knoweth whether thou art not come to the kingdom for such a
time as this?
Esther 4:14 (ASV)
Yesterday, I switched up my jewelry. I collect dragonflies
(jewelry) and it didn’t occur to me to consider why I find them so appealing
until someone asked…my answer was that they are like me, “fierce and fragile.”
(Sometimes I’m wiser than I realize.) Lately, I’ve been wondering why I’ve been
really hitting it hard lately. Kierkegaard wrote,
Life can only be understood backwards; but it
must be lived forwards.
I no longer need to know it all (why things
happen, what they mean…that’s God’s job), but I do value the review of my
experiences (and my lessons) to discern what God might be teaching me, or what
I need to learn. I’ve been hitting it hard lately to have my mettle tested…to
confirm what I’m made of. I am fierce and fragile, but also sheltered
and treasured.
I was drawn to Esther because life’s throttling lately reminded me, despite
what’s happening in my life, I have favor before the King.
I pulled Finding
Favor with the King by Tommy Tenney off the shelf today. Clearly, it’s
time to read it again. I was as drawn by the book itself as I was the inscription
from the friend who gave it to me,
God truly placed you in my life for a purpose.
I know that God’s favor is upon you. Be blessed.
Sometimes the blessing you’re about to receive
has been waiting for you to be ready. Esther was fierce and fragile. I can only
imagine that this season in my life is about being ready. So, it looks like I’m
back in training, for God’s next big thing. As I get started, I’m re-reading a
message I wrote myself as an encouraging reminder.
Fierce and fragile, but ready to walk in the favor for which I
was created. It’s almost time, and all of what has gone before suggests that
the after is going to be extraordinary. Further evidence that God is good.
On Wednesdays, I pray and and play with friends
here...
