Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
1 Peter 5:6-7 (NIV)
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
As I write this, Isaac has weakened from hurricane to tropical storm. The storm is passing over. It seems that I was the only one concerned. Both my husband and my mother already had their peace in the time of storm.
Last week, at the earliest projections, I called mommy to run through storm prep (like she needs my help). She had no concerns, even as I inquired about moving granny from the house to a hospital or respite care, just in case. Mom, as usual, tolerated my rambling, reminding me that it was all in God’s hands, and beyond that, she wasn’t worried.
To my growing anxiety over the weekend and through yesterday, my husband, he of few words declared, “your mother will be fine.” That was it. I believed him, believed God, but acknowledged again that I am flawed, frail, and beautifully human. I am a woman of faith, but also very much a work in progress.
Yesterday’s blog was about devastation, and moreso about deep faith. Today it is about my conviction. I am thankful that God dealt gently with my fear. I never doubted that He was bigger than the storm; I earnestly intended to surrender myself, my fear, my whole self to Him, and He rewarded my earnest intent with Grace (that’s what He does). The storm is passing over.
I have learned much about fear on this walk of faith, but this resonated with me today…
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.' We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles" (1992)
As a child of God, it is my sacred obligation to reflect His glory. The light comes not from me, but if I fail to let it shine, someone seeking God in me might not see. And then I was afraid no more.
Now I’m off to a sacrifice of praise, fried chicken and potato salad done two ways (yes, it’s time for today’s feast). As I leave my writer’s perch, I am reminded that my cup (and my plate overflow). I am reminded, even through my fear that I will rejoice. I am reminded that God is good.
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