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Sunday, August 26, 2012

Go for God, obediently…


Serve only the Lord your God and fear him alone. Obey his commands, listen to his voice, and cling to him.
Deuteronomy 13:4 (NLT)

I say a prayer every night
Whatever I do, I'll get it right
With no regret, no guilt or shame
This time, no not this time 
Move ahead in faith, and patiently await
Your answer, what will it be
Im gonna be ready
music and lyrics by
 Terry Lewis, Yolanda Adams, 
James Wright and James Harris

Just because you haven't walked into your freedom yet
doesn't mean the bonds weren't already broken.
Be kind and loving to you, child of God.
You deserve the very best Heaven has to offer.
In the midst of a very busy today, I was called upon to speak to the heart of a girlfriend. While we are connected, she is someone I’ve never met. Even the mere fact that I felt obligated (to her) was God’s call to me to open my heart, share my faith, believing that my honest profession might light a fellow sister’s path. The experience stayed with me all day, encouraging me not to fear a chance to evangelize. I am no evangelist, and I would steadfastly resist the label. All I did was go for God, obediently (that the title of a sermon I heard recently…)

My sisterfriend wrote,
I doubt myself, my relationship with Jesus and everything that entails - all of the time. I wash about, all the time, like a wave in the sea. I am trying to grow in faith, so as to not be that person…all I could hear in my head was, "You may as well give up. God will never use you. You can't even hear His spirit. You are worthless. Stupid." And I wanted to crawl back into bed and stay there.  I write this to you with tear streaming down my face.

I read this and I panicked.  Not only did I hurt for her, I felt obligated, as she had been so open, to respond in a way that would bless her. I have friends whose effortless, natural, eloquent, comforting assurances for others leave me stunned. I was panicked, but not paralyzed. I was frightened, but undeterred. In Deuteronomy 13:4, Moses reminded the children of Isreal-
Serve only the Lord your God and fear Him alone. Obey His commands, listen to His voice, and cling to Him.

Simple, right? Sounded a lot like “go big or go home.” Prayerfully, I went in, knowing that the right words would come out of me if (and only if) He put them there.  I pressed in, and wrote the following…
Dear sister, it is clear that you have a heart for God. Bless you, and bless even your tears as you shed them. You wrote that you struggle with doubt..at least you're honest. We all do. B’s words were so true; we are made strong through Him despite our weakness, despite our humanity.

You wrote, "I want so much to be a ministering, healing woman of God. Full of His grace. That's what I want." If so, all you need to do, to begin, is hide yourself in Him. Surrender. I know the struggle of surrender...I work at it daily. But here is what I do know. Hear this in the loving voice in which it's being offered....you're not doing any of it on your own anyway. Even as you struggle.  Jeremiah wrote, "I know that a man doesn't control his own life. He doesn't direct his own steps." Jeremiah 10:23 (NIRV) You're not alone, you never have been. And, if God led you to this place where we, all cracked in unique ways, can lean upon, learn from, pray for and pray with one another, we already are ministering, healing women of God. You cannot know the impact you have on others lives, even as you struggle with your daily walk. Just don't give up. Keep walking. Keep searching. Keep seeking His Face and clothing yourself in His Word. You've never been worthless. You were created by, and are loved by the King of Kings. If we are made in the image of God, would you say to Him the things you say to yourself? Would you treat Him the way to treat yourself?

We love you, we of the…sisterhood, and you are already free. Just because you haven't walked into your freedom yet doesn't mean the bonds weren't already broken. Be kind and loving to you, child of God. You deserve the very best Heaven has to offer.

I think it helped; I pray that it did. It helped me not to be afraid. I looked back over the sermon notes that inspired me, and read the following…
  • Evangelism is Universal.
  • Evangelism is both horizontal and vertical.
  • Evangelism is for people.
  • Evangelism requires you to study the Word of God.
  • Evangelism requires preparation.
  • Evangelism requires Faith.
  • All believers are called.

I answered, going for God, obediently. I moved ahead in faith, patiently awaiting His answer, not the clever one I thought I might craft (thank You Lord, for showing up just when I needed you. I have another sisterfriend who writes that You are a God of Alreadies. She is right). I surrendered my fear and my resistance, and He showed up. Moving ahead in faith; going for God, obediently…powerful assurances that God is good.
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